Monday, May 7, 2012

Health and Beauty Day

Yesterday, my friends and I went to AlJabbar consultant to get treatment. Well, we are not sick, but it is of a sudden urge to take good care of our body.
I have a check up there, and I am quite astonished to know that my blood is actually acidic. No wonder I am easily fatigue and sleepy most of the time. Even my hobby is sleeping! haha Only then I knew I have allergy on milk, dusts, smoke, alcohol and hair coloring. I mean, I never thought that I have this kind of allergy. Ever since I was a kid, whenever I drank some milk, I would feel as if my stomach is bloated. I thought it is normal. About the alcohol allergy, I never knew because I never drank one in my entire life. Lucky me that alcohol is strictly prohibited in Islam. :)

My weight is 45.2 kg and my height is of 157 cm. She told me I am of average BMI level and that's a relief. Those haters out there, please don't call me 'pokok' anymore. You never see me wearing tight t and you never knew how I would look like wearing one. Hahaha. Some people keep mocking me cause they are jealous! They would never had the chance to have a body as slim as mine! Keep hating me will do. That will make me even happier to know you are being jealous of me. :) Someone told me I have a body of SNSD member. Well, I can't deny that because it is true! HAHAHAHAHAHA. Jealous? Thank you. :P

Sorry SD, I am being so positive today, you might feel like throwing up right? :D 

About Acidosis (Acidic Blood) 

Acidosis is an increased acidity in the blood and other body tissue (i.e., an increased hydrogen ion concentration). If not further qualified, it usually refers to acidity of the blood plasma. Acidosis is said to occur when arterial pH falls below 7.35 (except in the fetus- see below), while its counterpart (alkalosis) occurs at a pH over 7.45. Arterial blood gas analysis and other tests are required to separate the main causes. The term acidemia describes the state of low blood pH, while acidosis is used to describe the processes leading to these states. Nevertheless, the terms are sometimes used interchangeably. The distinction may be relevant where a patient has factors causing both acidosis and alkalosis, wherein the relative severity of both determines whether the result is a high or a low pH. The rate of cellular metabolic activity affects and, at the same time, is affected by the pH of the body fluids. In mammals, the normal pH of arterial blood lies between 7.35 and 7.50 depending on the species (e.g., healthy human-arterial blood pH varies between 7.35 and 7.45). Blood pH values compatible with life in mammals are limited to a pH range between 6.8 and 7.8. Changes in the pH of arterial blood (and therefore the extracellular fluid) outside this range result in irreversible cell damage. 

Symptoms of Acidosis


Friday, May 4, 2012

So Far

I don't like it here.
Yes, that's the truth. I wish I could turn back time even if it is just for a second. My life during my secondary school days are much sweeter, much tender and much gentler in fact. Ayu and Izham; both are my cousins, and we paid great respects to each other. The three of us used to be in the same class. My friends, Ainun, Thania, Sal, Nabila, Fatin, Farah, Mira, Bashir, Hisham, Irshad (sorry for those name I do not mention) they made my life so beautiful. And that is the reason I love them so much. My friends here are obviously different, in character, in personality, and in manners. I just can't cope with this situation even when I do have friends who understands me the way I am.

What did you feel if your friends refused to answer your call? Calling you a nuisance? I heard from my friend, that one of them even called me 'orang gila' or in proper English, 'crazy woman' (best-suited). I'm hurt of course, but I paid no attention as she actually had done many other great deeds for me before. I just use that excuse to cover everything up. It is okay. It would be fine. Right, SD?
The other three pretended not to hear anything. They knew I called, and just put their hand phones away. That's pretty much of a drama. I knew this. Do you think I am stupid? I am just being ignorant. Putting my anger in the front line would never bring any benefits to me at all.I ignore everything they did up to this point. I think I would continue to be like this, being ignorant to the situation around me. If I don't, I would end up being hurt again. For now, I will just remember every good deeds that they have done for me and erase the bad ones. I would be alright again. Keep smiling :)



Lucky me that I managed to survive this situation for already two years and a half. Another 2 years to go. Fighting!

Well, I am not the type to talk about others, but I did tell my closest friend about what I personally feel inside. Is that wrong? I don't like to spread rumours about others and I am sure to hate those who spread rumours about me and my private life. My life consists of my Creator; Allah SWT, my beloved Rasulullah SAW, my father, mother, elder brother and younger brother. I love HIM and I love them so much of course :) Is there anything to be jealous about? No, nothing. You have your own family, and I have mine. The only difference is how you appreciate their existence in your life. My family is the most significant thing that I ever had so far.

Hah! By the way, yesterday, my ex roommate snapped a picture of me with the piano with her DSLR. It came out great of course even though it was just a random snap. Hahaha. I am so damn happy! How I wish to realise the dream of owning my own grand piano one day! It is not just a dream, it is an ambition of mine. I would surely, one day realise it. Just wait and see. My first keyboard is Casio CTK-230. It feels great to be with my 'Kibah'. His name is Kibah, my keyboard, I mean. Hahaha. What a weird name it is.



p/s : 'When life is treating you like a rock, become a stone'

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Today

How I wish I could be like her. She was able to stand up to protect someone who is so dear in her life. Would I be able to do the same? Today, I sat for ELE (English for Undergraduates) paper. I mean, what the heck is that? The questions are so damn hard plus I did not have enough time to actually think what I should write in my second essay. I was lost in my own thoughts hahaha :D But then, my friends made it up for me. We went out for an outing after our dinner (at 6 pm) and applied the cosmetics tester like we always used to do. I even saw a young woman laughed as she saw us. Well, did I care? :D She must have thought we are just school kids, trying out the tester out of curiosity. She was not wrong however. HAHAHA . Tomorrow, I am going to sit for my second paper. Hubungan Etnik. More into Malaysia History. I guess I wont have enough time to read the entire chapter in that book.

Friday, April 20, 2012

Maher Zain - Number One For Me (Mother)






I was a foolish little child
Crazy things I used to do
And all the pain i put you through
Mama now I’m here for you
For all the times I made you cry
The days I told you lies
Now it’s time for you to rise
For all the things you sacrificed
Oooh
If I could turn back time rewind
If I could make it undone I swear that I would
I would make it up to you
Oooh
If I could turn back time rewind
If I could make it undone I swear that I would
I would make it up to you
Mom I'm all grown up now
I'ts a brand new day
I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday
Mom I'm all grown up now
And it's not too late
I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday
You know you are The Number One for me
You know you are The Number One for me
You know you are The Number One for me
Oh Oh
Number One for me
Now I finally understand
That famous line
About the day I’d face in time
‘Cos now I have a child of mine
Even though I was so bad
I’ve learnt so much from you
Now i’m trying to do it to
Luv my kids the way you do
Oooh
If I could turn back time rewind
If I could make it undone I swear that I would
I would make it up to you
Oooh
If I could turn back time rewind
If I could make it undone I swear that I would
I would make it up to you
Mom I'm all grown up now
I'ts a brand new day
I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday
Mom I'm all grown up now
And it's not too late
I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday
You know you are The Number One for me
You know you are The Number One for me
You know you are The Number One for me
Oh Oh
Number One for me
You know you are The Number One for me
You know you are The Number One for me
You know you are The Number One for me
Oh Oh
Number One for me
There’s no one in this world
That can take your place
Ooo I’m sorry for ever taken you for granted
I will use every chance I get
To make you smile
Whenever I’m around you
Now I will try to love you
Like you love me
Only God knows how much you mean to me
Oooh
If I could turn back time rewind
If I could make it undone I swear that I would
I would make it up to you
Oooh
If I could turn back time rewind
If I could make it undone I swear that I would
I would make it up to you
Mom I'm all grown up now
I'ts a brand new day
I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday
Mom I'm all grown up now
And it's not too late
I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday
Mom I'm all grown up now
I'ts a brand new day
I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday
Mom I'm all grown up now
And it's not too late
I'd like to put a smile on your face everyday
The Number One for me
The Number One for me
The Number One for me
Oh Oh.. Number One for me

Thursday, April 5, 2012

Tears of Life

I feel so sad today when my mother told me that my grandmother is suffering from cervical cancer. I knew she is sick these few months, but I never really imagine that it would be cancer. Her conditions worsened every single day. Her body is getting smaller by days and she can't walk on her own at all.. It is as if her strength is dying out. I don't want her to die yet. Not yet. But even the doctor told us that we have to take good care of her or in other meaning she actually told us to be with her during her last remaining days. She knew that she has no more chance of living and she always kept repeating to me and her daughters and sons that she is going to die soon. She looked terribly afraid when she said that. Everyone is afraid of dying as we do not know what awaits us in the other world. In her case, she suffered so much, so much that you would never imagine.

I just can't take this anymore. I don't want her to die. This few months alone I have been experiencing the deaths of my close ones. My cousin, my relative, and I don't want to experience it again. Twice is more than enough. Please, no more. . .
I knew death is not something under human being's control. I knew that. But if you were to experience the deaths of those very close to you twice in a row, what would you possibly feel? And that your grandmother actually had cancer and have no more hope? What would you feel? That's what I am feeling right now. My mother must be feeling very sad. I hope I would be by her side at this very moment but unfortunately I can't. Be strong, mother.

And this time around, everything is hopeless as it seems to be.

Monday, April 2, 2012

Love and Hatred

I have this intense feeling of hatred inside me. It has resided in the deepest part of my heart for so long now.I do not think that I would be able to forgive her for what she said to me.I hate such an egoistic person with no sense of maturity.
I never said that I am perfect. I have lots and lots of flaws. Even much much more than you have. But I always remind myself to never look back or you will never be able to look ahead again. Life must goes on no matter what occurs.
Speaking of which, I think I have developed another hatred for guys. I'm sorry guys. I just do not have reasons to like you. Even if you do not like me, then it is okay because I don't mind the slightest about who hates me and who likes me, if there's any.






Few weeks ago, my cousin died. He is only 17. I'm not that close to him maybe because of our gender and age difference. I can't even believe that he is gone. Not to mention his sister, a best friend of mine, I think she would take quite some time to move on.
I dedicated to him my second piano song, the one that he did not have the chance to hear. I do not believe it. I just can't. He is just so young. ..and yet.. T_T
He was my neighbour. And I do not even had a chance to say goodbye, for the very last time. That is my regret.
I bet he also would never have thought that he would die so young. He was just here yesterday and today he is already gone. Gone to the other world.

ALLAH ...

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Life is melody itself.



I am currently learning the keyboard. Being a keyboardist is not that easy. However, I will try my best. I really, really love piano. I don't know how, but I like slow music so much. Even if others said that instrumental music is boring, I don't care the slightest!
To be exact, I don't know how to read the notes. I know some of them, but I would take alot of time just to interprete one! Hahaha. Reading scores is not my thing after all. It has been about 3 months since I learned hitting the keys >.<
And to my dismay, there's only few songs that I can remember well.

Omokage by Kakishima Shinji - I have changed the tempo and keys. I'm sorry for Kakishima :P
Tears by Lisa - changed a few lines according to what suits my taste and ears
Nursery Rhymes (Haha!) - okay. I have also changed those, adding some keys :D

It is so hard to practice everyday since I always have work to do. Especially in the middle of the semester when I have tonnes and tonnes of assignments. Hardly spend time in my hobby. Huh.

Hey people!

Don't judge me, unless you have looked through my eyes, experienced what I have, and cried as many tears as me. Until then, BACK OFF; for you have no idea.