it was the same thing for me. though i have been hurt numerous times, i am still able to stand by my own two feet. alhamdulillah. somehow i keep thinking, 'do i deserve this happiness, all this joy?' well, i don't really know, but my past was full of grief and sorrow no one would be able to contemplate. i guess that makes it even. isn't it? :D
inshaallah we are going to be together soon. i love you.