Sunday, November 3, 2013

la tahzan

last night, i was totally shocked. 
shocked to know 'that person' has engaged and getting married next year. what is this feeling then? i feel so depressed and sad i'd rather not knowing the truth at all. :( 
i never blame this on my parents. they knew what is best for me. And Allah knew my heart that even i don't. maybe my heart is not pure anymore.
maybe it is darkened by my impure actions, my sins, my mistakes towards my Creator. i deserve this. so it should be okay. 

i found someone that my parents like. i don't know how long would this continue as i am afraid it would repeat itself again. i know how my heart looks like. it is not the same as everybody else's since i'm just me. i lacked many many things.
 pray and du'a are my only hopes. 

would he be the one for me?

only HE knows

Hey people!

Don't judge me, unless you have looked through my eyes, experienced what I have, and cried as many tears as me. Until then, BACK OFF; for you have no idea.