I have been learning to play this song for two to three hours (I think), but I only managed up to a few seconds. Arrrggghhh! I don't want to give up, but it is so tiring. Feels as if my fingers are going to cramp soon. Tasukete, naruto-kun!
See. the C keys are so far away from each other. my fingers can't manage! I hate this feeling. But then, when I watch the cover videos again, I'm inspired to make one too. But then....!
Well, hoping for a miracle to fall upon me soon heh :P
hehe. my own original recipe of fried rice. well, i am not a good cook really, but it looks like fried rice nevertheless right? hahahaha. Taste? well, you won't die eating it :P
preparing the ingredients took quite some time since i did everything myself. i used garlic, large onion, mixed vege, chillies, cabbages, slices of chicken, soy sauce, u might as well put some chilli sauce, but i prefer to put mashed dried chillies <---- i dont even know what that thing is called even in malay so i came up with my own translation. gomene ! :D
and last but not least, u must put salt and sugar. hehe. as easy as ABC
This Japanese series is based on a true story of Aya Kiito. A young girl diagnosed with Spinocerebellar Degeneration; a disease without a cure.
It is a truly inspirational story where Aya, on her own, fought the disease though she knew the cure is impossible to be found in her lifetime.
Nowadays people tend to forget the inconvenience of the disabled. We become selfish and greedy. We want what is best for us and mourn for the inconvenience that we face. We blamed God for everything that happened. Little did we know, there are still many people out there facing day-to-day life thinking when would they die with diseases known to kill them eventually. We kept agonizing over trivial things, over broken love relationships, while they are suffering even to be alive. How selfish a human would be?
I realized how selfish I am. I cried for the most trivial matter. I asked why Allah didn't answer my prayer. Now I know, there will always be reasons behind it. I have to be grateful for everything HE gave me. I can walk. I can speak. I can hear. I can eat. I can do any physical activities that I wanted. Thank You ALLAH.
I won't be thinking to have anyone by my side again. I know how YOU are always there for me. It is me that leave YOU. It is only me feeling so alone when YOU have given me everything anyone could ever wish for. Alhamdulillah.
No words would be able to describe my happiness as my parents approved of me going to Japan next year. Hahahaha. Well, if that doesn't come out well, I might be going two years from now as Plan B. Well you know how the alphabets goes. :P
Looks like I have to learn Japanese abit.
Watashi no namae wa Hana desu.
Hahaha. By the way, just now we went recreation-ed at the nearby lake.
Well, it was my first time riding on a water bike. Amazing, but I guess it was a lil bit tiring, for me. We will be going there again tomorrow. My brothers are going canoeing. More pictures to come. :D
Haha. I guess this one puny, little word has come across your life for thousands of time or perhaps, millions. Therefore, i think, there is a need to be a bit philosophized regarding this matter.
Love is an emotion of a strong affection and personal attachment. Love is also said to be a virtue representing all of human kindness,compassion, and affection —"the unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another". Love may describe compassionate and affectionate actions towards other humans, one's self or animals.
In English, love refers to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from pleasure ("I loved that meal") to interpersonal attraction("I love my partner"). "Love" may refer specifically to the passionate desire and intimacy of romantic love, to the sexual love of eros, to the emotional closeness of familial love, to the platonic love that defines friendship,or to the profound oneness or devotion of religious love, or to a concept of love that encompasses all of those feelings. This diversity of uses and meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, compared to other emotional states.
Love in its various forms acts as a major facilitator of interpersonal relationships and, owing to its central psychological importance, is one of the most common themes in the creative arts.
Love may be understood as part of the survival instinct, a function to keep human beings together against menaces and to facilitate the continuation of the species.
‘Whosoever chooses to follow guidance, follows it for his own good; whosoever goes astray, goes astray to his own loss.’
(al-Isra’ 17: 15)
this verse is true. we have choices. we choose what we think is best for our lives. yet little did we know that somehow our sins have encapsulated all the good deeds we have done before. that's what i am afraid of. my faith is not that strong. sometimes i astray, sometimes i forget HIM, sometimes i don't even know my deed is wrong and sometimes i make mistakes intentionally. That's how bad i am. i have repented. i want to be a better person. Never did i know that Allah wants me to be close to HIM. My Pakistani friend told me that once we have lost the feelings of guilt in our heart (if we make wrong doings) then that means we are sinners. A sinner never feels what they do is wrong. Their heart is darker than black, harder than stone. i am afraid, if i am actually one of the sinners without me realizing it.
~O Allah please forgive me~
My friends. I don't want you to be like how i used to be. i am a bad person. u would never imagine how bad i am. u see me all innocent, yet i don't know what does my heart look like. we don't know what people around us have gone through in their lives. so, never judge a book by its cover. if they have changed, if they have repented, don't look at them with such hate and detest for their past mistakes. they may actually be purer than any of us. Allah knows better why HE gave tests to certain people. i don't think i would be the way i am now if my darkest experience didn't actually occur. thanks to him i have matured more than i could ever dream of. as i said before, the choice is ours to make. i am happy with my choice now even though that choice hurt my innermost soul. Allah knows best.
"Those who rejected Our revelations will soon be thrown into the fire. No sooner will their skins be burnt out then We shall replace their skins, so they they may taste the real torment, Allah is All-Mighty, Wise."
life teaches us lot of things. we suddenly become aware of the situations around us. we became aware that things happen for reasons.
my life is not to be toyed with; my feelings should never be played with. i am no toy. i am a human.
yes, i admit i used to make a lot of mistakes, and i also know that this is a test for me to see whether i have changed or not. but u know, i have had enough. i have changed so whatever you do will not effect me, not a single bit. now i believed i should love myself more than ever before, because someone told me, i am unique and different from other people around me. how is it different i dont really now myself. but, yes, i do feel myself to be different from others since a girl who loves anime sure is a weirdo, right? Haha. also, it might be because i am the only daughter in the family so i acted a lil' different from the girls of my age.
i want to be a rose.
beautiful to be seen, injure you if you are not careful with them.
i would never walk into that same road i used to walk. i am going to take a different one, a road that can brings me closer to my Creator, not the one to push me away from HIM. Truthfully, i admit sometimes i forget about HIM, and my beloved Prophet. i am a human, making mistakes more than you could possibly imagine. i am trying to change for better.
HE does brought me people who change my life. my friends. i love them so much <3
P/S: i have been alone for so long now. i am much more independent than you would ever imagine I am.
she wanted to be a better keyboardist. a much better keyboardist that everyone would watch her performance with such admiration. she wanted to perform in a band. but then would that means she is senseless when she left her keyboard at home? haha.
there is no need for further argument that girls need boys and boys need girl. according to my friend, a relationship between a girl and a boy should be closely watched as it would lead to another problems if we did not take extra precautions. yes, she is right. i agree with her. but i also pity her since i knew those kind of ppl wont listen to every bit of advice that was told. it is just like giving advices to logs of woods. they know what is wrong, what is good, what is haram, what is halal, yet they did that anyway. why? because we humans tend to forget things easily.
I remembered her words clearly. before she even gave that speech, i have been trying to avoid guys in such manner that people often disregard my actions. they thought i love to be alone. no, i hate being all on my own. i really hate that. it is just when i wanted to be with my girlfriends, there, tend to be guys around and i don't like it. thats the kind of thinking that i have been nurturing inside my very mind. strange? i knew that. being alone is such a sad thing. beside from you being able to avoid any gossips or rumours, you would feel strangely isolated. you would feel as if you were to cry but then there is no tears.
is there any other person out there who could possibly be feeling or thinking like me? i bet it would be one in a million.
"you would never know sadness when you were never being all alone"
covering up this whole story with a fake smile on my lips is the hardest act ever.
laughing, when your heart is in pain is the cruelest action ever.
you think you know pain? try to be all on your own. you eat by your own, walk on your own, watch that person when others aren't watching are such pain that would leave a scar once it stabbed you from behind. yes, i know i have my Creator. i do know that. but why i feel sad when i remembered my best of friends texting, calling and chatting with guys? i knew secrets that were hidden between my friends. that friend told her secrets to me, and that other friend told her secrets to me too and somehow their secrets overlapped which involved the same guy. that guy looked nice and kind but who knows? i have this prejudice feeling over guys i know that. and i am sorry for that. you never knew what you were to do if you were in my shoes. i stopped myself from hurting others. i blocked away my feelings and how i wished it would just disperse into thin air like the wind. but our memories are not something to be toyed with. we have no access to our own mind, to copy, edit, or delete it. we can't do all that.
this upcoming month of Ramadhan i wish all of us would be having a great time fasting, empathizing with the misery of the poor who were unable to eat when they want to.
She looked at her reflection in the mirror. How fascinating it is if that very mirror is a magic mirror. A sudden thought brought her back to realisation. How small she is. To even think about it would be an embarrassment to her own soul. Her ego is way high beyond no one's reach.
She walked outside her room. Being held captive like that are not a remarkable thing after all. It is as if her mind is trapped inside as well, with no room to even linger around. As the door opened for her, a bright ray of sunlight reached her face. She slightly closed her eyes and opened them again in amazement. Her eyes gleamed as her lips smiled willfully. Her nose caught the fragrance of grass lying on the widest field she had ever seen. Catching a deep breath, she set her bare feet on the ground. The warmth of Mother Earth enveloped her. Up above the clear blue skies, birds were happily flying in flocks.
"Life is wonderful as it is. It is human who destroy the dream of others. But it is also human who dared to dream the wildest imagination in the hope to bring happiness to others. Look at the birds, they flew happily. Look at the flowers, the bloomed gracefully. Look all around you. Who dared to destroy all of this for their own selfishness? There are some kind of human. One of a kind, who dared to play around with nature, torturing us silently almost like silent killing under the moonlight. It is us who should stop them. Humankind is a race with such kindness that won't allow a shred of hatred to breed among us. Let's stop them."