Thursday, July 27, 2017

Little Munchkin

It has been more than a year since the day i last wrote an entry here. 
Recollecting all the memories from the entries before has made me smiled broadly. How come i were so romantic back then? Haha. Well you know, honeymoon phases come and go. 

Today i am going to share a post about my son, Farhan Rizqi. Yes, my son. And i was like omaigoddd i already have a son! Yes that just conclude how old i am (still sweet 26 puiii) haha. 
My son is already 5 months old today and i'm taking care of him myself without my husband here in Sarawak. He is working somewhere in Kelantan. And i told you, it was quite hectic without him to help since my little bundle of joy likes to be pampered so much, he would cry if you leave him alone even just for a second. Haha. i mean thats how kids grow up right? i would say nothing since most of us when we were still little babies have our own personality traits already right? 
He was born on 24th February 2017 at 9.44 pm after being hours in the labour room. The pain was unimaginable but looking at him now would almost erase all the pain i felt few months back. He was the piece of treasure i loved looking at, like most Moms do. And here he is, 

Monday, February 29, 2016

Rays of Hope

it has been quite sometime since i last wrote an entry here. somehow i miss my own writing. Haha.
By the way, life has been quite hectic for me. Last year was a disaster. just hoping for some rays of hope this 2016. this year i would be teaching mathematics for year 1 and 3, English for year 2 and Physical Education for year 3. it is not that many subjects compared to last year. last year alone i taught 9 subjects altogether. yes i think i have gone kind of a psychotic. haha. the only cons for this year that i have to teach english for year 2. it is not that bad, but then they don't understand my instruction well when i speak english. and they would be like krik krik krik for like, a few minutes. haha. huh whatever.
i have this one student in year 1 class. i teach maths in that class. i dont want to mention his name here or i will get sick. he has just got into year 1 this year and have never been to pre-school. he would get in and out of the class as he wish. his grandma would always be there for him. sometimes she (his grandma) would be inside the classroom; it almost feels like interfering with the lesson (forgive me), sometimes she would be at the window shades of the classroom, looking at his grandson at all times. she said his grandson wont come to school if she is not there for him. and last few days, his father came to school, asking for my friend (the year 1 homeroom teacher) to not be so ferocious and it feels kind of like a little warning, and ask that friend of mine to enhance her teaching abilities so that his son would be interested in learning. his father said, it might take about 7 to 8 months for him to cope around with the school surroundings. yes, 7 to 8 months. haha. his father is being funny, i guess. others have been taught numbers from 1 to 100 and his son knows nothing. not abc, not 123 either. his knowledge is zero. and his father said, wait for 7 to 8 months. hahaha! if he is my son, i would gladly lock the doors and let him cry if he doesnt want to be in school, learning like the other kids of his age.

enough for now.
i am going to write exam papers. see you again soon. bye bye.

Sunday, April 12, 2015

My shining star

My best friend.
My companion.
My comrade.
My everything.

he is the best thing i ever experienced in life. the best, regardless of all the pain i have ever felt before. he is the one chosen to be my soul mate and my partner in life. the one name ever written in the book of fate to be my knight in shining armour (huh?)

it was on 7th July 2012 that he started texting me on facebook. eventhough it was brief (really brief), at that moment i was asking myself, "em, who is this guy?" Never would i thought he would be the one asking for my hand in marriage. :)

he only asked me what my option was. =.=' haha

and then on 24th September 2013, he texted me saying that he wanted to say something very important. I was shocked since i hardly know him in person (i am the type not to be involved with anyone haha). i only replied his text on 4th October.

the truth was, i was rather confused, "is he texting the right girl?" haha. 
my friend used to text me when he actually meant to text his girlfriend since we share the same name. :D

he said he was not wrong, it was me that he was looking for. and i was like, "wow, there's actually a guy who knows me." haha i thought no one was able to see me since i was invisible most of the time. a trait i'm proud of. :P

picture taken on our Engagement Day. 
see that cushion? :D

my best friends, always there to help. Thank you dearies!

our wedding day, 14th March 2015. 
thanks guys for coming. really appreciate that. 

15th March 2015. 

it was not easy to come to this point of life. we faced many things together but Allah knows better. 
alhamdulillah, thank you Allah.


thanks to you, my dear husband,
for you were able to see me when i was invisible. :)
if you are reading this, i want you to know again and again how much i love you. 

Friday, January 16, 2015


16th January 2015
officially someone's wife. I feel so complete. Thank you Allah, alhamdulillah. We have gone through so many things in the past but we overcame everything and HE granted us with huge bounty in return. Allah, i never thought of this point in my life, not even once. Yet you give me everything anyone would ever wish for. He is another part of me, the best of whom i would gladly share my life with. I love you dear. Thank you so much for everything.

One of my besties, Sal. Thanks for coming! Wouldn't do anything without you! 

Officially husband and wife.

Sunday, November 23, 2014

it has been 5 years and a half

this is the sacred place where i learned and experience things in life. how i miss being part of the society, how i miss the people there, the places i have been, the food, the culture and every single thing that i see. i miss my friends the most. they are the best people of my life. though sometimes we argued about the most trivial stuffs, well people said that true friendship is never serene, right? :)
things that we have been through turned us into young adults, thus realising that there is more to this world than just 'that'.

my 'bestest' friends
Seoul Garden, QueensBay 19 October 2014
in memory :)

Saturday, October 11, 2014


life is a test. it would never be so easy unless you die.
it was the same thing for me. though i have been hurt numerous times, i am still able to stand by my own two feet. alhamdulillah. somehow i keep thinking, 'do i deserve this happiness, all this joy?' well, i don't really know, but my past was full of grief and sorrow no one would be able to contemplate. i guess that makes it even. isn't it? :D

inshaallah we are going to be together soon. i love you. 

Hey people!

Don't judge me, unless you have looked through my eyes, experienced what I have, and cried as many tears as me. Until then, BACK OFF; for you have no idea.